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Ignore Grief

by Xiu Xiu

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1.
Rolling off the yucca, a lesser crucifixion onto black berry thorns He beat she too bad what a God awful wonder is Man My dumb arms wide open My dumb blindfold tied tight My dumb cigarette lighted My dumb dumb smeared across the wall Baby my hands hurt so bad Are you going to make me say it baby, baby, baby, baby My heart hurts so bad too what a God awful wonder is Man Piled in a corner Everything we are The Real Chaos Cha Cha Cha a world with nothing to forget a life with nothing to regret a love with nothing to forgive baby, baby, baby, baby You aren’t the first person to leave me stuffed in a trash can I am not the first person you have stuffed in the trash He beat she too bad what a God-awful wonder is Man He beat she too bad what a God-awful wonder is Man Take it personally When I kill myself in front of you I am candley I am looking for candle in the wind Candle in the wind This is candley I am candley I am looking for candle in the wind Candle in the wind This is candley
2.
Turned out By your gaga for glass Chomo Gobble a wreck of your you Overpass On a box You are 5 (years old). She watches Fore the rapes Stockton Sanitation found you What is your fondest wish? Kyle opened up “to be dead and to kill” A heaven of no ones and never nevers
3.
Poor little head my mind is not where it belongs Always in a narrow space Rended Ceded between death and not death Apart Ignore grief The atoms that make up my will Obsess not off nor on a teen angel Will tarry in parts And litter the roadway for as long as they can Ignore grief Esquerita, Little Richard Tears of Blood Clouds of Glitter Esquerita, Little Richard Blood of tears, Hot Pepper What are you doing later? I can’t make my mind mind Anything could happen Tear it up, strut your stuff Be disappointed when you wake up ignore grief
4.
A tarantula crawled under the bed It seemed unconcerned , I was hiding there too he never looks under here The sky is almost magically clear fear and darkness? It doesn’t make sense If he finds me And sees the tarantula too Chuga chuga chuga Will he hesitate? If you scare him away I will get a tarantula tattoo If you need to bite me I will understand Here comes my curious finger Sliding closer across the tile Chuga chuga chuga I can hear him screaming outside All the neighbors hate his guts Do you ever turn into a butterfly or a wasp? Do you never change? My finger is getting closer Am I going to smash you? Awake unto me! Arise, arise! Awake unto me! Arise, arise!
5.
It was burned With a lighter A surprise How much Love hurts Fer-de-lance As a vision O’ the day He would kill me He followed me up and down the block in a circle Each time he passed by he would spit on my clothes Other men have choked my own sense of self Only he has choked my everywhere Tarsier, tarsier, tarsier, tarsier Not a vision, an idea of a way to be Pretty men make the world burn Dolly pie as a hangman Gasoline as a vision Him or me sparks an answer A black hole is everything a star longs to be Surprise again but a surprise swinging from a wire Now it is only I let to choke my everywhere I binged before so shit would plume all over his carpet So much pressure to feel or even say joy Tarsier, tarsier, tarsier, tarsier Not a vision, an idea of a way to be
6.
Pahrump 04:21 video
Nameless You did this To yourself Publicly wild in sorrow With extreme and almost comically Excessive violence now not beneath you Back from the dead With promises to live at least 3 months Jack-o-lantern ass With paid up rubber tits For a conscience Paula Pahrump Eats in a dump Reacting to the slightest bit of kindness as though a drug… The rain tambourined off a thousand empty liquor bottles in the courtyard When your sons grow up to never place flowers there You did this to yourself, is all they will choose to remember Plum petals Fall into Shade
7.
Anyone in the way. Anywhere a dirt road Anyone in the way. A whirlwind of black hair A whirlwind of black hair Border Factory Don’t Flatter yourself Come closer No one wants to know Border Factory Don’t Flatter yourself Come closer No one wants to know A body that invites violence what NEVER will be, will be the coroner's van And its coming dust A flash of blue sky in the dirt Neither still wearing a smock Neither still wearing a name tag Border Factory Don’t Flatter yourself Come closer No one wants to know
8.
Incestuous Nudity To hate Actively Murderous Exequy Exhumate Unsmothering Rites of Reversal A menstruate A copulate Baboon Like a god Suffocate baby’s breath Cannibal baby mouth You and you can begin You cannot unbegin again “I will bake my head in the oven!” To feasting on the flesh
9.
In my secret heart, Torn asunder I wonder why, why, why, why, why, why, why Why do I happen to me? Fanciful summer Eating poison apples I would give my eyes To awaken Happens all over, over, over, And I never get to see see see see see Fanciful summer Eating poison apples But what pours out of me Pours into the sea While Blank and opaque needs Stay sealed in my SECRET heart A scalping knife is just a dull knife How will I have worn my hair in this exceptional moment? In this fanciful summer The dagger in your secret case Tip only drawn across your breast I plan to steal it Cut the seal from my SECRET heart Fanciful summer Eating poison apples Eating poison apples
10.
For M. 08:18
I Cackle tap ash Wobble dump Apple Jack Melanie Onto apple blossom buds II Roll a die Pick a hole Thelarche Mini van Limp in Shut up Fucking Fuck So bad, so fast III Boiling sugar Cinderblock Screwdriver Cub Scout knife IV Goodnight thought The apartment stank Goodnight pain Murdered by a slob V No form nor waste Alone But for Pluto

about

This is a record of halves.

Angela Seo sings on half of the record. Jamie Stewart sings on half of the record. 

Half of the songs are experimental industrial. Half of the songs are experimental modern classical.

Half of it is real. Half of it is imaginary.

The real songs attempt to turn the worst life has offered to five people the band is connected with into some kind of desperate shape that does something, anything, other than grind and brutalize their hearts and memory within these stunningly horrendous experiences.

The imaginary songs are an expansion and abstract exploration of the early rock and roll “Teen Tragedy” genre as jumping off point to decontaminate the band’s own overwhelming emotions in knowing and living with what has happened to these five people.

What none of this record does and despite the oft repeated assertion, what Xiu Xiu has never done, is attempt to superficially shock the listener. Instead, Xiu Xiu has spent twenty years grappling with how to process, to be empathetic towards, to disobey and to reorganize horror; there is no other word for it other than horror.

The motivation for writing Ignore Grief to be about a child who was sold into prostitution by his mother, a junior high student who was kidnapped and murdered, incessantly choosing alcohol and cocaine over one’s family, becoming lost in the bleakest, darkest aspects of cultish spirituality and committing suicide as means to escape and protest a life of violent sex work is because the members of Xiu Xiu themselves are deeply shocked.

Old friend and new member David Kendrick (Sparks, Devo, Gleaming Spires) joins Angela Seo and Jamie Stewart through whatever this may be and whatever it may mean and why ever it may have occurred. The point of aesthetic examination is to see if there is any way to come out the other side or if there is even any reason. In either case there may not be but to simply turn away would be yet a further act of destruction.

“I had now lost all confidence in myself, doubted all men immeasurably, and abandoned all hopes for the things of this world, all joy, all sympathy, eternally. This was the truly decisive incident of my life. I had been split through the forehead between the eyebrows, a wound that was to throb with pain whenever I came into contact with a human being.”

-Osamu Dazai

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released March 3, 2023

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